It’s getting really real.
Last week I resigned from my position at Wake Med Mobile. One that I have held for over seven years. Immediately after I hit send on that email, I had chest pain. The anxiety kind. The kind that feels like you are so nervous your heart might explode. I wish I could say that I was a rock. A pillar. Full of faith and trust. But I wasn’t. I was scared. I do not have 100% of my support raised yet. But as I was trying to do my own planning and “scheming” of how I could do this on my own, I was quickly reminded that this isn’t mine to plan. This isn’t my thing. It is His. As I have said all along, I am just privileged to play a role in this fantastic plan of His. So I went into the deep end and jumped in with both feet …believing that He is more than able to provide. My last day will be August 13th.
I get home after a long hot day and I see two giant boxes sitting on my doorstep. Absolutely overwhelmed, I sat on my kitchen floor and cried my eyes out as I opened up beautifully wrapped packages and goodies-most for my move to Uganda. But my favorite gift was a decorative globe that has part of Psalm 119 inscribed on it… “If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there you will be with me…”
One of my dearest friends had done it again. She found the most perfect way to bless me; all the while being the very hands of God to bring me comfort during a time when I was afraid and was feeling very alone. A peace flooded over my soul. I still don’t know how this is going to work out, but I know the One who has called me is faithful. And as I settle on the far side of the sea, His hand will be with me. He will give me perfect peace as I set my mind on Him. He will give me the strength to say goodbye to all that is familiar, and to face whatever lies ahead. If He can direct the perfect gift to be delivered at the perfect time He can certainly continue to move hearts to give to His work.
And you better believe this precious reminder of His continual presence will make it to Uganda with me, even if I have to get it its own seat. 🙂